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Thursday, May 26, 2011
Last blogged @ 11:37 PM I shouldn't be here right now.
Fucking MSTs are starting tomorrow and the teachers are not letting us off! Right, so conduct lessons as usual? I am NOT happy with this kind of arrangement. I am not even half confident of doing well for my accounts paper. I have tons of doubts and I'm going to go mad soon. And I don't want to sit in the classroom for 3 mad hours doing things I don't want! So, easy. Just pon school! But... another massive dilemma. The girls, are actually thinking of going. And I feel bad for just throwing everything to them while I stay at home. Call me stupid. Seriously, who thinks so much when they wanna pon school! Excuse me, but I have never done that in my entire poly life. And since tomorrow are tutorials, it's only right I go and contribute. But... Come to think of it, my exams are more important! Isn't it?! (And as I continue typing this, I feel like I'm gonna break down soon. Why do I feel guilty? Why do I feel like I'm bad?!) I'm going to stop here. I keep changing my mind and it's bringing me to nowhere. I hate this. I hate you school. Labels: School
Monday, May 23, 2011
Last blogged @ 11:38 PM A lot of thoughts and feelings these few weeks.
I shouldn't be thinking about 'em cos MST is just this friday! But it keeps distracting me and it's not good at all! :( Haven't felt like this for so long and I don't know how I should manage such feelings. Sometimes it makes me happy, sometimes it makes me sad. I keep searching for hints. Sometimes they're there, sometimes they just disappear and leave me stranded. So I tell myself to forget about it, run away from it. But at the end of the day, it keeps embracing me, and I have no choice, but to fall into this unknown bottomless pit. It's so tough trying to keep it to myself. Neither am I gonna tell anyone cos I'm so uncertain. Oh well, time will tell.
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Last blogged @ 11:43 PM Long wednesday cos of Sally's makeup tutorial.
And she actually gave us a C++ for tutorial! Wts. And when we compared answers with the other groups (who all got a B), we found that they were similar!!! Woah totally increased our dislike for her. And that was the first time we sat so far back from her for her lesson. She was probably pissed with us, but whatever! We were equally displeased. - Oh yes!!! And M1 had a ridiculously long outage today, and I lost my network from morning 8am all the way till I left school at 5pm!!! Felt so deprived of technology cos I couldn't sms and make calls. And I had to rely on twitter to get the latest updates. It's like I'm an idiot, with a phone but cannot use. When I finally got back my network, my phone already low batt -.- - So after school, I went to meet Yin Xuan, Jasmine and Karen for Karen's farewell dinner!!! :( Had Eighteen Chefs at Tiong Bahru!  Funny how I just told the poly girls on Monday that I haven't tried it before (make me feel like a suaku), and here I am, trying it just 2 days after!!! (Y) Good timing good timing!Yes yes, and I love student meals! So here's my pasta with tangy tomato sauce and sausages!  And Jasmine's pasta with... something something. And Yin Xuan's terriyaki salmon or something like that. Look at the egg! Biong biong! And we forgot that we had an ice cream together with our student meal, so we greedily ordered waffles (cos also student price mah!)So we (Jasmine and I) finished only half of this!  And here comes our waffle! Huge serving!!!I like the waffles! Mmmmmm. And very reasonable at only $4!  So, Karen will be flying off this Saturday, and we won't get to see her for a whole good 5 months!!! :( Gonna go remind her to bring back presents when I send her off!!! Hurhurhur. Okay! Till the next time!
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
Last blogged @ 10:34 PM Celebrated Ah ma's 70th birthday today!!!
Take a look at the swimming pool~ And can see my old house! I miss it so much!!! And I still haven't gone to see how it looks like now!  Kk anyway, we booked the function room! And all the foooooood!  And durian cake for ah ma! Baked by my aunt! And it's awesomeeeeeeee!  Family photo first! (All are family except for the one beside Vicki, extreme left) Yay and singing of birthday song~   And love these 2 cheeky kids!!! Specially requested for me to take this photo of them! Cute max! And last picture of ah ma indulging in the cake! HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH MA!!! I'm not a grand-daughter who is very very close with my grandma, cos I actually don't spend a lot of time talking to her. But I really want to thank this very important women who brought me up, took care of me, cooked all my 3 meals, buying my favourite food (like keeping durian just for me) and bringing me to school, bringing me out to shop, buying me things (even though I always don't like them). She's one person who is indispensable in my life. I'm not very filial and sweet as compared to my brother, who gives her massages, sweet-talk to her, and make her very happy all the time. But ah ma, 我爱你! I may not be saying this to you, but you are really very important to me! I hope that she'll have many more healthy years to come. And probably see till I get married and have kids! Lol.
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Last blogged @ 11:30 PM A lot of emotions today.
My 6th GrandUncle passed away a few days ago and today is his funeral. During the moment that everyone went to see him for the last time, my aunt broke down. During the cremation, everyone was crying, nobody wanted him to leave. But him leaving us, was a fact. Even my ah ma cried. Never once in my 17 years of life have I seen her cry. I felt so helpless, I didn't know how to comfort her. The feeling I had was too overwhelming for me to describe. I was never close to my GrandUncle. Yet, during the days when I went to the wake, I strongly felt the bonds that binded my family together. I do not mean the family that only comprising the 4 of us, but instead, the many uncles and aunties as well as cousins that I may have never met. But we have all come together to witness the passing of someone in the family. Though I was not close to him, I found myself fighting tears when the coffin was sent for cremation. His grandson was shouting for him to come back. I think that was the first time I throughly felt the pain of losing someone. R.I.P 6th GrandUncle. You were strong in fighting your illness for so many years. Now, your pain is taken away. May you rest in peace. - I wanted to talk about something else, concerning family matters. Yet, on one hand, I don't know how to approach this topic. On the other hand, I find it too personal and probably inappropriate to voice out here. - Many matters that I've been thinking about recently. - What can I say? I've come to realise over the months that the Family is the most important thing you can ever have in your entire life. I used to think that I could live on friends alone. Now, I know that was naive thinking on my part. I've learnt to treasure more family time and togetherness. I look forward to family meetings. I may not be very passionate and sociable as how others would be in their own family, but deep down in my heart, I appreciate the existence of every one of them. - Okay, enough of thoughts. - Anyway, dad is in Malaysia, so we've been meeting my aunt almost everyday for dinner. Apparently, Julian made a pact with my bro about coming over to play. So we had dinner together in the evening afterwards.  Decided to dine at the Marina Bay Golf Course. Love the scenery there! Just in time to catch the setting sun!  And the two cousins! The cafe where we dined at.The few times I've been there, I've always liked it!  Julian, totally sunken into the chair.  And the pretty view you get while you dine!  And my seafood bee hoon!  I think many people go there for the local dishes. I think it's not bad for a cafe. I don't know, my perception of local food in a cafe don't really taste good. But give it a try, if you haven't been there!!! And when the sky turns dark...  - MST is coming!!! Lots of studying to be done!!! Goodbye!
Saturday, May 14, 2011
Last blogged @ 11:37 PM Pasta De Waraku for dinner together with mum, bro, my aunt, Vicki and Julian tonight!
 Drove to United Square for dinner but decided to have it at Pasta de Waraku after walking around for very long.Ordered corn soup! It's a huge bowl!!! Damn worth it for $5.80!  And the 2 little kids! Anyone who agrees that Vicki looks like me?! Okay, maybe not anymore. I should go find a photo of the 2 of us when we were young. I swear we look so alike. And this is my Japanese Crab Gratin!  It was um... average. I don't know, maybe I wasn't in the mood for eating. Couple of unhappy things happened since we stepped into the restaurant. If you read my tweets, you would have known how mum was pissing me off over the ordering of food -.- Seriously, don't understand why she insist on sharing food with me, yet cannot decide what she want to eat. Urgh, cannot describe my angst at that point of time. I was not the only one who suffered so much angst during the entire dinner. Vicki was much more worst than me, cos she got scolded umpteen times for the slightest and trivial things. All her unhappiness was written all over face, but couldn't do anything about it. Grrr... all the mums tonight are like mean witches. Only the two boys got away peacefully and probably enjoyed the dinner the most. Fine fine. So we two look-alikes sit one corner and emo lor! - 2 other pizzas that I didn't get to try cos I was kinda full.  But I think it's not bad cos the rest of them wiped it all out!  - I think ending a blog post is the hardest thing to do. So no choice, I shall end it just like that again!
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
Last blogged @ 11:42 AM /edit
In continuation to my very depressing and pessimistic post below, I have come to update the world about how my 2 hours of lesson went. I very bravely submitted my photos for a critique session. And I was the second last in line to show my photos to the class. I think I was more worried about what if others had awesome pro aspiring shots, and mine looked nothing like theirs. So anyway, when my turn came... The teacher opened the folder... And... Realised... It was empty :O Okay, embarrassing. So I had to go up and resubmit my photos again. Then... He reopened the folder now that the photos are in, and started commenting. Guess how it went? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA He actually said: VERY GOOD!!! *beam* He did ask me to reshoot one. But that shot wasn't a very bad shot either. Just that I had room for improvement ;) *heave huge sigh of relief* I feel so flattered. Seriously, I think I've gotten panic attacks from trying to rack my brains on how to submit 6 photos. Yeah, I was defeated by mere 6 photos!!! And I'm so glad that at least my 1 hour walk around the canal was worth it!!! And me attending rallies was worth it!!! And... me living in such an awesome area in Singapore, is so worth it too!!! I got all my shots from the neighbourhood areas! Woohoo I love my home! So I can very 放心 and go submit my photos! - It's Week 4 already. Everything is going too fast for me to handle. MSTs are in 2-3 weeks time. I have a major project due around that time and next week, I have to hand in my 6 pictures for my photography lesson. Yes, this is what I'm going to talk about. In about 15 minutes time, I have to leave home (class was cancelled this morning, and even though I do not wish to go for GEMs, I still have to, in case I miss out anything important. Call me guai kia please.) and face the feeling of being inferior to the rest of my classmates. Actually, I know I'm thinking too much. I've been desperately attempting to take many nice photos of EVERYTHING. BUT EVERYTHING seems to fail on me. I'm scared that the weeny bit of passion I tried up build up in me over months is going to be crashed just because of this 6 stupid photos. I don't know. Why is it that when I take photos on my camera, it looks so good. Yet, when I put it into my com, it looks just like a lump of shit?! I have no face to show them out to the world. Just this morning, I took an hour's walk around the canal behind my house (I haven't done that for years), trying to find some other photos that I can hand it. I admit, I have some that I'm kinda pleased with, so I sent them to mum, thinking that she can help me choose some. But the feedback I received was, nothing extraordinary. WHUT?!?! Nuff said. That was painful. So right now, I am dreading the lesson that I have to go in about another 1 hour's time. What if my teacher looks at me photos and spits at them?! I hate failing and rejection. What if I cry in class? Dammit. Times like this make me hate myself. I hope there will be miracles later. Wait for my news. Labels: Photography, School
Monday, May 9, 2011
Last blogged @ 10:47 PM It's a Monday, and I usually won't be out in the evenings since there's school the next day.
But, I was out to celebrate Yin Xuan's birthday in advance, so it's different!!! Before that, I had to go buy a cake. And I kinda overslept during nap time, so I was frantically finding a suitable cake. Finally bought one from Bakerzin! Then I met them at Astons for dinner! Funny how we went there last year for her birthday too. Tried the black pepper fish this time!    I like how their food is so reasonably priced.Had our mini cutting cake session at Suntec's Sky Garden!          Okay, very short post and abrupt ending cos I'm very lazy to continue.
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Last blogged @ 11:01 PM  HAPPY MOTHERS' DAY!!! And hi, I got a doggie! His name is Fluffy!    Nah, just kidding. But he damn cute right!!! And he hasn't gone grooming for a long time, I suppose. And he's grown so big and fat! His fur is so long and thick, it's just like a carpet!!! Fluffy was a happy dog yesterday, he licked me all over my feet. Eeeew.  Back to Mothers' Day. We had a cake yesterday, but nobody wanted to eat it cos we were all so full from dinner. Woo chilli and black pepper crab!  And I love this photo of Granny and Hong Eng Ah Yi together! And the very mischevious Elliott who was eyeing the cake for the longest time ever. Okay, that was yesterday.Spent the first few moments of Mothers' Day watching Election results and I only went to sleep at 4. I didn't get mum a present. I don't know what to get also :/ Anyway, we caught "The Lost Bladesman" in the afternoon. I like these kind of Chinese historical movies. But this one really too chym for me to understand. So I was really tempted to go to sleep in the middle of the show. Went to Great World City cos I wanted to go change my phone. Make me happy only. Who knew... The blackberry torch didn't seem as nice as it was. And mum wasn't really approving about me getting it. And though I could get an iphone, I had to pay the full amount, cos we haven't received our annual voucher. So... In all cases, I just cannot change my phone. And how long do I have to wait?! 5 freaking long months! WTF. I can change my phone in April one leh, then I very patiently waited till May already. Then tell me now I have to wait for October. Fml sia. Nuff said. I was super pissed. And cos Mothers' Day, so I cannot show my displeasure also. Wah fine lor. Now mum also not happy cos I not happy. Everything my fault, just because I wanted a new phone. Whatever lah, I complain so much also no use. Wait till October lor. Maybe by then Iphone 5 is out or something, then I go get it. Tsk. Labels: Family, Mothers' Day |
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