Tuesday, February 28, 2012
Last blogged @ 11:55 PM

I was surprised so many of us actually play Tiny Tower. I thought it was stupid cus only bored people like me play to restock and send people up in my super fast lift lol. But err... oh well, Jaime has 126 floors omg what is that. Imma earn more money and build that many floors too!!!


I get bored of it sometimes, but it's always that surprise you get when you build a new floor, and omgomgomgomg why you give me this shop I don't even have use for it.

Shit, k that sounded stupid.

K, moving on...

I still ordered food, like cheese salmon with white wine and butter rice. I don't know how I managed to stomach it after eating my phad thai 2 hours ago. Plus that was cheese and butter rice... mmm filling.


And we gave Gwee her present! If only it was an iPhone 4s... But we gave her an equally good and beautiful red watch!!!


And some tarts, as her birthday cake!


Now I think I like exotic cakes. Normal breadtalk, four leaves or polar cafe cakes look so meh, they don't even look appetizing. I know I'm so superficial, I go for appearances of my food. Well, I get these at a better value, so why not! Plus they look much prettier and surprising than those normal round / squared cakes which anyone would be too full after dinner to even touch or eat them. Ain't this more interesting?


And they come in so many flavours, even in durian!!! I specially bought 2! And Gwee gave me one!!! ^^ Satisfied my craving for durian!!! I thought the entire tart was filled with durian (it tasted quite good honestly), and that kept me happy for awhile. Until I realised... that the bottom half was actually egg tart. K, whatever. At least I ate durian. I'm so easily satisfied, just like that. I kid. I want moreeeeeeee!


Alright, so an awesome day spent with all the awesome people! Good food and good company!

NEED to make every minute count and enjoy my short 1 week plus of holidays before I start 6 months of internship!!!

Labels: Birthday, Food, Friends, School

Saturday, February 18, 2012
Last blogged @ 1:34 AM

I want a best friend.

I've got many good friends, but I don't think I have a best friend.

Never ever, as far as I can remember.

It kinda makes me sad and jealous of other people who can talk to their friends all night, about anything and everything.When they have troubles, they know there's someone there for them.They have occasional arguments. They would go an extra mile for them.

I keep thinking of people who might be in the same situation as me, yet I don't seem to find any. Really?

I'm not saying that I'm deprived of friendship. The feeling's just different, I guess.

Not saying that I can't relate my troubles to anyone, not saying that there's no one there for me when I need them. I don't generally keep things to myself, yet, when I need someone to confide in one-to-one, it seems like there isn't anyone I can turn to.

Wow, sounds like I'm wallowing myself in self-pity.

I think I'm terrible at maintaining relationships with friends. I'm probably very willing to put in a lot to sustain a friendship when everyone's all close to each other, even more than what I would give to myself.
After awhile, everyone gets tired making plans, but not being able to meet up, and generally just don't bother to in the end. Then slowly, all communication is broken off. So what do we call this? From good friends to...? Been the case since kindergarten till now. I remember their names, the things we do. Do they even remember?

How is it that even though best friends don't have to meet for a long period of time, yet still maintain such good rapport with each other? Yet, I only end up losing connection with my "good friends".

Maybe only because they bother putting in the effort. While I sit on the fence and wait for people to approach me.

Sad case, really.

But deep down, I've still wanted a best friend.

Not like after this post is being published, I'm going to gain a best friend. Don't think I will have one in the near future either.

I'm not discontented with my social life. There's nothing wrong with it. I'm grateful for all the friends I have with me now. And my boyfriend whom I believe I can always turn to.

I'm not trying to be all emotional. Just penning down some thoughts which I would have done so long before, but just forgot to.

Personal opinion, really.

Wednesday, February 15, 2012
Last blogged @ 9:59 PM

Vietnamese fried spring rolls turned out to be so different from what I expected it to be. Vast difference from the real Vietnamese spring rolls. Interesting try anyway...






Glad that he like the present I bought him. Judging from how I see it, I think he likes it more than me now :(



Alright, hope you guys enjoyed V day / friendship day as much as I did.

Labels: ♥, Food, Vday

Friday, February 10, 2012
Last blogged @ 1:14 PM

So what have I gotten in the end?

Have I really won?

I think I did...

But, with that comes consequences. I'd probably tarnish the school's reputation, left bad impressions of myself to all the involved lecturers. And I finally found out what angst my course manager has.

I guess,  I really complicated things. I made everyone unhappy.

And me, being me, still can't figure out why I'm so useless.

I only know how to cry.

Forever.

Is it even normal to cry?

In the midst of this entire saga, I felt bad. I felt awful. I felt that maybe I was really creating trouble. Maybe, I should have shut up and accept my fate. Why must I be different from others and make myself look bad in front of others. Why did I want change, yet, only know how to cry in front of others. It was so awful hearing someone twist your words and put you down in the face.

But, I think I was really scared or somewhat. I don't know. I think these were leftover tears from yesterday. It was worse. Urgh, I feel dumb.

Now that I've made my decision, I can't regret.

Hope the next 6 months will be different.

Let's hope this has come to an end. I'm so tired I don't want to fight this war anymore.

Thursday, February 9, 2012
Last blogged @ 8:57 PM

Shit happens, yet again.

So tired of getting frustrated, and ending up in tears everytime i talk about it.

说是不在乎... But in the end, it still matters so much to me.

What do you mean by asking me not to complicate issues and not make you stressed? What about me? My feelings? Getting rejected like as though i'm not worth anyone's time and effort.

I know i cannot blame anyone, but i certainly can blame you, the school.

This feels like a joke. I feel like a joke. I feel like i'm being treated like a joke. My life's being manipulated. I can't make decisions.

All i get is coaxing by a lecturer who just wants me to shut up and follow instructions.

I tried so hard to not breakdown cos there were so many people around. I needed to show that i was fine about it. I know this is not a big deal, but deep down, it affected me more than anyone else thought it would.

I wanted so much to confront someone about such stupid decisions. What did they treat me as? What was i? Yet, at the end of the day, i realise i'm always so vulnerable, scared to retaliate.

In the end, i try so hard to tell myself not to cry, yet unknowingly, i still do. In front of the boyfriend, in front of mum. And i hate how i feel so useless to be put down by such setbacks.

Can't believe how i'm going to spend my next 6 long months in an environment i totally cannot imagine myself to be in.

Makes me feel like i'm an alternative, how this company is an alternative, thrown to the back of an alley, like where this company is right situated.

Things may not even be that bad, maybe i'm just too pessimistic. But... Truthfully speaking, it just hurts too much when reality is of such vast difference from anticipation and expectations.

已经有所期待，但最后只有失望.

Sigh...

Need positive vibes.

Not being selfish, but it's so difficult to be happy for others at this point of time.

Just gotta live with it.

Pray for me.

Tuesday, February 7, 2012
Last blogged @ 4:02 PM

Im forever hungry. Kthxbye

Thursday, February 2, 2012
Last blogged @ 9:34 AM

Helllloooooo!!! Im in the mrt. Lolololol. I think this is me? Idk i think im highhhhhh!!!! Wheeeeee