Friday, January 13, 2012
Last blogged @ 11:36 PM

It's been such a tough week.
The signs are so prominent, it's showing on my face. And I've been sleeping rather early this week because I'm afraid, so I sleep to stop thinking.

2012 is so tough.

Everything is not going right.

It's only the beginning of the year, yet it gives me the feeling like I can't even live past this year.
How can the difference between 2011 and 2012 be so drastic?

Feels like no matter how hard I try to make it good, it still turns against me and make me feel unhappy.

Actually it's just one thing that's making it bad.

Yes, internship.

Majority of the people have already gone of their interview / already known their placement, yet, I am still waiting here like one idiot, waiting for Pico to call me.

Maybe I'm just giving myself pressure.

But it's always so nice having mum, my friends and the boyfriend to withstand my whining and channel some positive energy to me throughout this entire week hahahahaha :')

Well other than that, we have finally finished the library event. I guess.

And for the first time, I daringly played truant by running away from the teacher in his face. Erm, well, if I took my attendance already, then it's not counted right?

Also had a site visit to RWS with DEPM. It was considerably the most tiring day in the week, from reaching school early to tie balloons, going back to the library immediately after lesson to pump more helium balloons and giving them out, skipping class, as mentioned above, and going to RWS to walk like an idiot.


Guess the most enjoyable moment was getting to shoot photos using Wei Liang's DSLR, I'm so appealed to the idea of owning one too.

Call me superficial if you say I just want to look cool (even though I don't think I will be even after having one, but just saying) owning a DSLR blah blah blah and that the photos I take turn out like shit. But I'm seriously quite intrigued by the manual functions. I actually bother reading up the specifications of the camera online, even though I barely understand 3/4 of what is stated there.

Yes, my G12 can do that too. SO WHY AM I NOT CONTENTED.

Plus if I want one, I would definitely have to fork out my own money. WHERE ON EARTH AM I GOING TO FIND CASH. I am already so heavily in debt at this point of time. And what's going to happen to my G12?

HOW CAN I HAVE THIS THOUGHT.

I deserve to be shot.

I need to psycho myself. I need to discourage myself.

Stop being materialistic.

Why is this happening every year? Just last year, same time, I was bugging mum to allow me to get my G12.
And now... History repeats itself.

But...

Sigh...

Be rational. Be rational. Be rational.

But...

Labels: Photography, School