Wednesday, May 11, 2011
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In continuation to my very depressing and pessimistic post below, I have come to update the world about how my 2 hours of lesson went.

I very bravely submitted my photos for a critique session.

And I was the second last in line to show my photos to the class.

I think I was more worried about what if others had awesome pro aspiring shots, and mine looked nothing like theirs.

So anyway, when my turn came...

The teacher opened the folder...

And...

Realised...

It was empty :O

Okay, embarrassing.

So I had to go up and resubmit my photos again.

Then...

He reopened the folder now that the photos are in, and started commenting.

Guess how it went?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

He actually said:

VERY GOOD!!! *beam*

He did ask me to reshoot one. But that shot wasn't a very bad shot either. Just that I had room for improvement ;)

*heave huge sigh of relief*

I feel so flattered.

Seriously, I think I've gotten panic attacks from trying to rack my brains on how to submit 6 photos. Yeah, I was defeated by mere 6 photos!!!

And I'm so glad that at least my 1 hour walk around the canal was worth it!!! And me attending rallies was worth it!!! And... me living in such an awesome area in Singapore, is so worth it too!!!

I got all my shots from the neighbourhood areas!

Woohoo I love my home!

So I can very 放心 and go submit my photos!

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It's Week 4 already.


Everything is going too fast for me to handle.


MSTs are in 2-3 weeks time.


I have a major project due around that time and next week, I have to hand in my 6 pictures for my photography lesson.


Yes, this is what I'm going to talk about.


In about 15 minutes time, I have to leave home (class was cancelled this morning, and even though I do not wish to go for GEMs, I still have to, in case I miss out anything important. Call me guai kia please.) and face the feeling of being inferior to the rest of my classmates.


Actually, I know I'm thinking too much.

I've been desperately attempting to take many nice photos of EVERYTHING.


BUT


EVERYTHING seems to fail on me.


I'm scared that the weeny bit of passion I tried up build up in me over months is going to be crashed just because of this 6 stupid photos.


I don't know.


Why is it that when I take photos on my camera, it looks so good. Yet, when I put it into my com, it looks just like a lump of shit?!


I have no face to show them out to the world.


Just this morning, I took an hour's walk around the canal behind my house (I haven't done that for years), trying to find some other photos that I can hand it.


I admit, I have some that I'm kinda pleased with, so I sent them to mum, thinking that she can help me choose some.


But the feedback I received was, nothing extraordinary.


WHUT?!?!


Nuff said.


That was painful.

So right now, I am dreading the lesson that I have to go in about another 1 hour's time.

What if my teacher looks at me photos and spits at them?!

I hate failing and rejection.

What if I cry in class?

Dammit.

Times like this make me hate myself.

I hope there will be miracles later.

Wait for my news.

Labels: Photography, School