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Happy 19th Birthday to myself :)
Just some words to pen before I end this day and go to sleep. Wanted to keep this very personal but I just can't help feeling very suffocated if I don't get it off my chest. Maybe this shall serve as a form of reminder and self improvement in the year to come.
As much as I am a very idealistic person when it comes to such events which I deem as important to me, I probably don't realise how my actions would affect the people around me, whether they really like it or not.
It's come to a point where I constantly want things my way (it's been always so), but maybe worse nowadays. I start to believe that the disappointment is proportionate to the amount of expectations I harbour, and that there's no point forcing what I want, so I tell myself to stop wishing, stop wanting, stop expecting.
Some thoughts that constantly run through my head. Am I really being too selfish? And most importantly, do I really / who am I to deserve that much?
Time to stop being immature and getting upset with myself. I need to be stronger.
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