Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Last blogged @ 10:48 PM

I have a lot on my mind now.

I don't know if it's a norm to always feel so troubled and frustrated when the school term just starts.

Well, my problem is...

Is anyone going for poly forum?!

Well recently, I received an sms & email telling me that I've been nominated to go for the poly forum interview which is held either tomorrow or friday!!!

And it will be held over a span of 2 weeks (on and off) both in Singapore and Malaysia in September.

Well, my other classmates seem to have no intention of going for it, so I dismissed the idea.

Afterall, the topics that we're going to cover in this forum is about local and national world issues.

Like omg.

I don't even read the newspapers!!!

And my English is like shitzxxzxzx.

I have to admit, that I'm not VERY VERY proficient and affluent in English.

But back to my point, yes I don't read the newspapers and keep myself updated about world issues!!!

I may watch the news, but how is that sufficient to allow me to survive 4 days in Malaysia, talking to the other pros from other Polys?

Wait a moment.

I'm talking about, IF I get nominated.

Right now, I haven't even passed the interview, so maybe I'm just thinking too much and you're probably wasting your time reading this post, but I just need to get it off my chest.

So you think, why I'm writing all these shit.

I can just ignore it right!!!

Yeah I wish.

Just this afternoon, this SP teacher, I don't know who, called and she was damn fierce / angsty / gl cos she was literally screaming at me asking why I'm not interested in this forum.

Meh, must have reason not to go for it meh!!!

Wah, then she said,

"It's no use if you keep participating in events and have no leadership points at all"

Damn.

I hate it when people say these things nowadays.

IS IT OKAY IF I GIVE YOU MY SECONDARY SCHOOL RECORDS?!?!

I just don't feel like doing anything in Poly!!!

D:

So as usual, I went to consult mum.

And she asked me to go for the interview and try it out first.

How how?!?!

I still have to do a 200 word write up on some issues and I have no idea how I'm going to do it!

And me being me,

I went to browse through last year's poly forum website.

Well, I think... it's not that bad. I don't know what I'm going to learn.

But at least I don't think they will make you play stupid games (I THINK ONLY, omg I hate playing games.) and it doesn't seem like a camp sort of lifestyle.

So, damn it.

I hate decision making.

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